Right now it's the word that is always in the air — following me. To be honest I'm not sure what I want anymore, I just know that I want to end up somewhere and be happy. Every day I ask myself, "how will it end for me?" Where will I end up? I do not know.
Academically speaking, I want college to allow me to pursue the things I love and not constrict me. Biology and English/languages are my favorite subjects in school. I fear that I might not be able to decide my preference, and so my expectations are to not have to. I want to explore more in each subject. I think of college as not the beginning of a career in medicine, which is what I wish to pursue, but a chance to exercise my curiosity. While I study premed perhaps I will take that archeology course I've been dying to experience. Or maybe, I will finally learn Latin, so that one day, when I uncover that crypt, I will be able to decipher the message. It sounds childish, but I don't want college to be the end of my small fantasies. Everyone says that college is about growth and discovery, so I want to have options. I've worked very hard in high school and I do not regret it, but it would be a lie to say that I have had to take some courses that I did not want to take but felt obligated (or was obligated) to do so. I want to be in charge of my own education from this point forth. I feel we have all earned that right.
I have many interests. For this reason, a liberal arts college that provides a well balanced and/or open curriculum suits me. The school does not necessarily have to be small, but discussion-based classes are the most inspiring to me. I want to collaborate with my peers and have an open mind.
My greatest college expectation is to be happy and to feel as if I have reached a resolution within myself. High school has been a fantastic experience that has treated me well, and as I suffer through applications, I want high school to end on a positive note. When all is said and done, I want to feel as if I have achieved all that I could and continue on with my life with no regrets and new, happy experiences in front of me.
I think we all have doubts about what we want to do at this given time. I know that when people ask me about college, I become stressed and I begin to doubt my decisions. College isn't an end to anything, its the beginning. It's a chance to discover who you are and it helps you grow as a person. What excites me the most is that there isn't a limit to learning. Knowledge goes on forever, and college opens so many doors. Applying to college is the first time I'm actually choosing what courses I want to take -- my parents can't dictate what I can or cannot do. It's our time to lead our own lives. I think this is my first step into adulthood. On another note, I also want to go into english and biochemistry. I can't choose either, and I'd love to study both. Go for what you love. It's my personal belief that we were placed in this world to do the best we could, to make an impact on someone else's life, and to be remembered.
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